December 28th, 2004

Subject: Yes thank you I have indeed been graced at birth... Time: 03:13 am Current Mood: drunk

... with the unique ability of being drunk without any sort of beverage being involved. There is a certain masochist triumph in being up at quarter past three in the morning writing a philosophy dissertation. During vacations. So that no I'm not rushing to hand it in. Why Truth? indeed. I say, Why Sleep? Well, obviously, since in somnio veritas, and no that's not the actual adage - I learnt a word which doesn't actually exist :p - and I'm going to write in italics if I want to Supernatural-Entity-curse-it this is because of Pascal's BET which was a was-just-critically-shot-warm-red-liquid-in-bodily-system-Animal deal with the Bearer-of-Light-who-tripped-over-his-own-Ego if you ask me. [edit: 5AM now. God (i haven't forgotten the capital) it's really quiet around here and I have many lights on. Just not in my head. Ugh.]

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October 8th, 2004

Subject: Today I killed the last man on earth... Time: 12:44 pm

... so there is no one left. :) Maybe this is what all problems come down to in the end, when everything is worn away, that is solitude. Because, by a method quite similar to the Antique septicism, I have discharged my heart and mind of their illusions, and cut all bounds with the known world. I have destroyed the dream of languages. I have seen, and thought that it was all real. I have realised that again I have only sacrifice for a measure. So today I went and laughed at the last man on earth, and stood over his ashes for a while, but to no avail, since he failed to rise himself up from the dirt. The sun shone over me, bright, telling of the whole glory of Heaven.

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May 1st, 2004

Time: 09:03 pm

Ok... this journal is becoming friends-only from now on. Damn LJ for not having a way to change all posts at once. *bangs head gainst table* Though I shouldn't complain, really, it's a cool thing. *pats LJ*

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April 30th, 2004

Time: 09:00 pm Current Mood: dead

Am tired. Saw that one alone this morning and did not go talk. 15/20 second Oral Blanc. Spoke with Harmonie for the first time in eleven years. [yes I was five years old] Though I did recognise her at first sight. Need to kill some people. Not going to friend's party because I'm not going to beg from my parents, damnit. Still tired.

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April 28th, 2004

Time: 10:06 pm Current Mood: tired

Dans ce train vieux qui courait la campagne Un jour d’été qui tirait sur l’automne L’aquarelle des champs monotones Sur tous les cœurs l’ennui qui gagne Et puis soudain comme l’aile d’un ange Un peu de blanc dans un cœur mal rangé Tout ouvert à mes yeux étrangers Oh que les paysages changent Contre la vitre un profil noir et blanc Pâle à l’œil sombre à l’âme mise à nue A la fenêtre cet inconnu Qu’il est aisé de faire semblant Parce que peut-être je me suis tue - Je ne sais plus ce qui est arrivé - Il y a de ces regards qui tuent L’œil noir sur le ciel blanc rivé

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April 26th, 2004

Subject: Drowning time Time: 07:51 pm Current Mood: headache of the year

The "Name Meaning Generator" Furius did seems intent on having me being bisexual. The "Having bisexual thoughts about your best friend" [which might be hard since I have no best friend :S] came up twice, and "Sexy Lady [!] but having bisexual thoughts often" once, in a total of five tries with five different names. The two other tries came up with "You have no life but will end up a millionnaire". Hey, not so bad after all. ;p

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Time: 05:29 pm Current Mood: tired

I don't understand. *cries*

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April 23rd, 2004

Subject: Lupin Time: 09:52 pm Current Mood: blah

( My trying to revise for Maths lead to this ) Very raw sketch. I suppose it's Lupin after one of his "troubled nights"... The writing read "Lupin / Troubled sleep, bloodshot dreams". Bleh.

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Subject: Le Chat - Time: 08:54 pm Current Mood: contemplative

And the highest state of being I can aspire to : a bunch of of colourful bubbles?

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Subject: Still can't do homework *is dead already* Time: 06:27 pm

From sothissalmarien tyelperinquar's Word Usage 1. the (398) 26. their (32) 51. by (19) 76. into (12) 2. of (233) 27. has (31) 52. am (18) 77. after (12) 3. and (217) 28. was (29) 53. can (18) 78. would (11) 4. to (191) 29. one (28) 54. when (17) 79. strange (11) 5. i (173) 30. who (28) 55. again (16) 80. around (11) 6. a (135) 31. on (28) 56. or (16) 81. pain (11) 7. in (126) 32. out (26) 57. king (16) 82. while (11) 8. that (120) 33. eyes (26) 58. some (15) 83. where (11) 9. his (108) 34. so (25) 59. too (15) 84. shall (11) 10. he (105) 35. at (25) 60. celebrimbor (14) 85. know (11) 11. is (104) 36. no (25) 61. what (14) 86. only (11) 12. not (93) 37. if (24) 62. upon (14) 87. lord (11) 13. it (78) 38. do (24) 63. house (14) 88. water (11) 14. my (69) 39. them (23) 64. will (14) 89. little (11) 15. but (65) 40. had (23) 65. other (13) 90. own (11) 16. as (58) 41. are (22) 66. even (13) 91. down (11) 17. have (52) 42. her (21) 67. white (13) 92. see (11) 18. for (47) 43. now (21) 68. more (13) 93. why (11) 19. from (47) 44. all (21) 69. walk (13) 94. about (10) 20. me (44) 45. been (21) 70. city (13) 95. name (10) 21. with (40) 46. cannot (21) 71. back (12) 96. away (10) 22. this (40) 47. you (20) 72. up (12) 97. then (10) 23. they (37) 48. himself (20) 73. formenos (12) 98. like (10) 24. be (35) 49. there (20) 74. door (12) 99. father (10) 25. him (34) 50. could (19) 75. heart (12) 100. walls (10) Username: Word Count by Hutta. Dun care. I'll do small jobs. Work at McDonalds. Starve. I want to be writing. Not... well, not doing Maths exercices, I suppose? :| But yech, shouldn't drop out of school. Not so soon at least. *ploughs on* *has got no idea what she wants*

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Current Music: Not Like the Other Girls - The Rasmus Time: 05:18 pm Current Mood: sad

And I know that I will hate myself all my life [or at least for a pretty good while] for not taking this chance, forcing this occasion indeed, because certainly this is one of these "once in a lifetime" things. But I cannot. It is just too difficult. And may I sometimes forgive myself. -.-

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April 22nd, 2004

Subject: I can't do my homework so... Time: 02:21 pm Current Mood: distressed

I have yet another crazy and unworkable idea for original novel. But as previously said, it is crazy and unworkable. Ahem. Story of the Man who was God

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April 20th, 2004

Subject: Un Balcon en Forêt, Julien Gracq Time: 02:48 pm Current Mood: high

"La troupe, sentant qu'on lui filait du câble, était aux anges. Elle n'aimait pas l'image de ce qui venait au-devant d'elle : cette bataille en fin de compte probable vers laquelle elle marchait avec le mol enthousiasme d'un percheron entre ses brancards : dès qu'elle sentait les rênes faiblir, elle piquait du nez dans l'herbe des bas-côtés, y cherchait les rêves de l'autruche dans le sable." I just read this, and it broke my heart. ( In fact I cannot recommend Julien Gracq enough. ) So if anyone need a magnificent book...

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Time: 12:04 am Current Mood: confused

Frankly, do I have it in me to go for a literary career [whatever that is]? Or, more specifically, to be a writer [and not starve to death in the process]?

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April 19th, 2004

Time: 11:15 pm Current Mood: drained

( Maedhros and Fingon [no slash, hey ;p] during the years of the long peace. Maedhros does paperwork, and Fingon is not in his right mind. ) I do not comprehend what I write myself. ;_;

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April 18th, 2004

Time: 11:08 pm Current Mood: strange

:'(

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Current Music: Hotel California - Eagles Subject: Furius' BirthDay - Oh, rejoice, All! Time: 05:16 pm Current Mood: sleepy

Here is the requested "artwork", if I dare call it so [a fanpiece for this] - after five hours consecutive photoshopping, many headdesks and one computer crash [and it still looks awful ;_;] - I present to you: ( *dies* ) As MoA said, the hands look weird -well actually everything does-, but I was short on time, and please ignore the golden eyes. They're random. -.- And he looks very androgynous. And not "fair". - oh damn. did you mean "fair" as in "fair-headed"? x.O - And argh. If it looks too bad to be figured out, he's supposed to be looking through a glass-window -hence the reflections and the "ghostly" people standing around-. There is ostensiously something horribly wrong with the face, because obviously it looks better like this ( Sorry, got a little murderous after a while ) Nyeh. So, in short, Happy Eighteenth Birthday furius! :) May you have the greatest of days, and enjoy my humble little thingie. [and ask the elf if he'll forgive me] As a random side note, I'm trying to play Hotel California on the piano. :D

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April 17th, 2004

Current Music: Southern Girl - Incubus Subject: For the Fountain-Lord Time: 10:58 pm Current Mood: crazy

Ecthelion Junior, brought to you by the Gondolin RPG. ( 'Gods, that's so wrong,' said Cirdan ) don't kill me nyah

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Time: 01:16 pm Current Mood: artistic

( Kiddophobics, step back ) ;p Too much homework mwahaha.

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Time: 11:54 am

Oh, and while we're at it, the three questions meme also works for Tyelpe. ;p Bet he's more interesting than me. *clicks "Update" button before wrathful elf can erase post*

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